Good morning.
There is stillness before me. My books are lifeless beneath my feet but their words bring me joy and reflection. So my mind is not still.
My stomach makes a few noises and my breathing is there but silent.
I look up at the pines and there are a few branches swaying slightly but I’m not sure if it’s the wind or a squirrel causing the movement.
It’s a snowy morning but a light one. The snowflakes are swirling in the air above as they aimlessly fall without brain or direction. They fall where they must.
And here I am, and here You are with me this early morning of winter.
As the show(show of snow)the winter symphony continues before me, here I am before You. Waiting, listening to a hopeful message You have for me today.
This day You woke me up, heart prepared to receive. I look at the trees again and it is the wind for certain this moment moving their branches and a rush of flakes flow strongly to my left.
I am remembering this morning at 5:30 walking up the stairs and looking out the door window at the snow on the ground and the light from the lamp illuminating the snowfall and I look down at the door because of movement and there it is.
A cat covered in snow and trying to find shelter. I immediately recall all the times growing up with random cats coming to our window in winter and me wanting to rescue them, all the while knowing my mom would do nothing to help them.
What an awful feeling that was. Me staring at them, trying with my eyes to let them know I cared but couldn’t help.
At that time in my life I had a lot of compassion and heart for animals because they seemed needy and helpless.
Little did I think the same for people, especially those who hurt me.
One of my biggest prayers has been, “Lord I want to be able to always say, forgive them for they do not know what they do.”
We hear it spoken by Stephen and Jesus. I pray that not just for myself, but for all of my brothers and sisters in Christ.
Lord, give us a missionary heart, a heart for the lost sheep and to truly love them the way Christ loves us.
I so desperately desire and ask for this. To love deeply and faithfully Father, just as You do most compassionate and Holy One.
I adore You and want to devote my life to knowing You, being known by You and discovering new truths You desire to show/reveal to me.
There is nothing and no one greater than Thee and my heart wants Your heart and I know Your goodness is beyond measure.
Your kindness runs rampant and Your glory we long to see here among us. We are a desperate people who always need You. I need You every day and night.
Every moment and in between. You are my everything, You indeed are all we need.
I want to know You in deeper depths that I’ve ever known or imagined. The love You give is beyond all I could ever hope. I’m in gladness over You, and I pray that that just keeps increasing as this time we have continues.
Joy in my heart, in my soul, in my voice, in the depths of life with You.
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