I don't dwell too much on the past, but there was a time that started in 2004 when I became ill. Extreme heart palpitations, anxiousness, trouble breathing. In todays study, Melissa pointed out a similar circumstance where she still shudders to think about it.
During my illness, I really thought God was punishing me for something, it was at a time I was studying under some false teaching which I also do not like to look back on. I am very humbled to think about it and the deliverance and experiences I will not ever forget. Flash forward to today, where I just returned from my yearly thyroid exam and my Endocrinologist who told me I have the blood pressure of a teenager, healthy as healthy. Do you understand my thankfulness in this? I am a person who likes feeling good. And I am so grateful to breathe a steady breath. To see how far I have come in all of this is again humbling.I also realize I could get sick again, but I don't dwell on that, I take each day and I wake up, I'm alive and God is showing me the sun again. My life is and always has been His plan. I so encourage prayer, I didn't really have that at the time, what a different experience if I had cried out to Him more. Are you in pain? Are you suffering? Pray with me. And I will pray for you. I made a promise to myself, to live each day in thankfulness, and this day might be my last, are you who you want to be beloved? I spent a lot of years in chains, I don't want to see those chains ever again. To have my hinds feet is the goal, to love is the goal, to persevere is the goal, to live each day in prayer, in thankfulness, giving glory to you Lord.
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